Enough is Enough!

I'm almost 14 weeks and my "morning" (what a joke) sickness isn't showing any signs of leaving.  I had a doctor's appointment last Monday, and the doctor said "You should start feeling wonderful any day now - more energy, a great appetite!"  Well, how exactly does he know that?  And, when exactly will I start feeling remarkably better?  Two days after telling me how wonderful I should start feeling, I had one of my worst days of sickness yet.  I puked before I went to work.  I puked on the way to work.  I puked when I got home, after deciding not to stay at work.  Then, I puked a few hours later.  What upsets me most is not that I am still sick but my fear that I'll be sick for a long long time.

There are those women who have never experienced any sort of morning sickness, my sister being one of them (she's 18 weeks along with her 2nd baby and has felt wonderful all through her pregnancy).  Their babies turn out perfectly healthy, so the idea that "morning sickness is a sign that you're having a healthy pregnancy" is crap.  I feel like these moms aren't having to go through a rite of passage that I am.  Yes, I'm bitter.  Because, basically, I can't find any reason that I have to be sick and other mothers don't.  I always viewed pregnancy as a really exciting, wonderful time of life.  In reality, pregnancy is a time of exhaustion, vomitting, yeast infections and helplessness. 

I hate to be a bitter Betty.  I am so grateful to be pregnant and to have had a healthy pregnancy so far.  I know that what I'm going through will be the farthest thing from my mind when my sweet little girl (so far it's a girl!) arrives.  But, right now, pregnancy is no joke and I need support from those who can relate!