Enough is Enough!

I'm almost 14 weeks and my "morning" (what a joke) sickness isn't showing any signs of leaving.  I had a doctor's appointment last Monday, and the doctor said "You should start feeling wonderful any day now - more energy, a great appetite!"  Well, how exactly does he know that?  And, when exactly will I start feeling remarkably better?  Two days after telling me how wonderful I should start feeling, I had one of my worst days of sickness yet.  I puked before I went to work.  I puked on the way to work.  I puked when I got home, after deciding not to stay at work.  Then, I puked a few hours later.  What upsets me most is not that I am still sick but my fear that I'll be sick for a long long time.

There are those women who have never experienced any sort of morning sickness, my sister being one of them (she's 18 weeks along with her 2nd baby and has felt wonderful all through her pregnancy).  Their babies turn out perfectly healthy, so the idea that "morning sickness is a sign that you're having a healthy pregnancy" is crap.  I feel like these moms aren't having to go through a rite of passage that I am.  Yes, I'm bitter.  Because, basically, I can't find any reason that I have to be sick and other mothers don't.  I always viewed pregnancy as a really exciting, wonderful time of life.  In reality, pregnancy is a time of exhaustion, vomitting, yeast infections and helplessness. 

I hate to be a bitter Betty.  I am so grateful to be pregnant and to have had a healthy pregnancy so far.  I know that what I'm going through will be the farthest thing from my mind when my sweet little girl (so far it's a girl!) arrives.  But, right now, pregnancy is no joke and I need support from those who can relate!

Looks like Pink!

I'm 12 weeks and 5 days today, and I had my first ultrasound.  I wasn't expecting to be emotional, but when I saw our baby moving around on the ultrasound screen, I started to tear up.  The baby was moving all around and allowed the doctor to get a nice in between the legs shot, which leads me to the unconfirmed, not 100%, may or may not be news...it looks like we have a girl on our hands!

It's a good thing that Jeff and I didn't want to make the baby's sex a surprise.  While examining the ultrasound photos, the doctor came right out and said "Looks like a girl to me!"  He reviewed with us the giveaway photo, which pretty clearly indicated that there are female parts in place and a definite absence of male parts in place!  Of course, we aren't going to start painting any rooms quite yet!

I was pretty confident that I was having twins.  And, if I wasn't having twins, I was pretty sure I was having a boy.  So, there's "mother's intuition" for ya!  But, over the course of the day, I've become very excited about the prospect of having a little girl in my life.  I've been hot rolling my hair since the 3rd grade, and I couldn't very well pass that along to a son.